I am having a bad day……….
Just thought I’d write something as I’ve just had a mini melt down and been crying my eyes out.
My hands and arms are getting worse everyday and it’s so upsetting to me. In the mornings I wake up and they are so swollen especially my left hand and I cant’ even bend them, it’s too painful. I have no strength in my hands, Davids having to open more and more things everyday for me. To me this is so scary and I am so upset today about it.
I am so sick and tired of dealing with pain EVERYDAY. I wish I was born into a fit body. I always say I was born into the wrong body because I want to be fit and strong and it’s just a constant battle everyday single day of my life and I am truly getting so tired of it. Sometimes I wish it wasn’t invisible so people could understand what it’s like.
I am taking pain killers everyday now which I really don’t want to do but I have no choice as they help.
I really wish there was a trainer out there that really knew about Fibro, I don’t think I’ve ever met any trainer who really knows about Fibro, Please let me know if any of you guys know someone. I want to be strong and healthy and I am constantly trying to do that but It’s tough trying to figure things out all on your own all of the time and having no one for advice. It’s so hard to stay positive all the time and I think I do, do a good job of it most of the time but sometimes I break and I get scared for the future. I love been active so he thoughts of not been able to be active in 10/20 years makes me very sad.
Thanks for listening and thank you for the lovely messages you guys send me sometimes here.
I started this blog just to write. Write what I wanted to say and keep an account so I can go back and read it when I'm grey and old. :-)
Grew up in the music industry and lived it for years. Music will always be in my life.
Lover of food, fashion and music. Cruelty Free. Vegetarian. Vegan. Plant based.
Fibromyalgia, Endometriosis, IBS
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